surrounded by emptiness

Oh what a great day for the fucking me. One moment I thought my life would change like forever and the next moment I was totally fucked. Life will never be fair. People are roaming around the world for sightseeing and relaxing and enjoying themselves and all that shit. Yet I’m sitting here alone dating my fucking computer 24/7. Can you imagine what a loser I am ? Even when sleeping, my computer is still not switched off. I mean people complain about having to work and waking up early to go to school and taking this exams and that exams and meeting old friends and whatnots. But imagine if a typical day of yours is

2pm. Wake up and shower and have the first meal of the day.

3pm. Read newspaper and start to switch on computer or keep switching channels.

3.30pm. Go online and read the whole wide world’s blogs, including those shitty ones.

              Go to mininova to download anything that seems to be worthy.

6pm. Have a second meal and eat really slowly so time will fly

7pm. Catch friends on starworld or so. Glue to the computer till 10 and shower and continue gluing to the fucking computer.

and continue

and continue

and continue till 7 am in the morning to call it a day.

People say that holidays are nice and all. That, my friend, is only true when you have something to do like travelling to the other side of the world to see how and what the whites have achieved over the past 100 years.

I feel so suffocated at all and sometimes I wish I were to be fucking kidnapped and my parents wouldn’t bother to find me. I mean that was what I exactly dreamt last night. After being kidnapped by some fuckers, I was laughing away and feeling really euphoric and jubilant and estatic and blah blah blah because finally I was be able to be completely out of the house.

My typical day is so fucking boring and some were saying that it’s shiok. Ya, SHIOK MY FUCKING BIG FAT ASS. I’m not looking forward to anything anyfuckingmore. I know it’s really fucking rude that I keep using the fucking word for like so many times and my teachers never taught me to do that and so did my folks. But if you were to be in my position, you’d know how mundane it is to be totally stuck at home with no future and socialization and fresh air and all. Only old people in their 90s stay at home and wait to die. I’m 19 not 90 and I’m already doing what exactly a ninety year old person does, waiting to DIE.

Hey mimi, enjoy your self in AUSTRALIA ok and please if it were possible, run away and stay in the farm in Australia forever. Trust me, it ain’t fun staying at home.