It is of pure surprise that we are still surviving that sometimes I still can’t believe. It is somewhat undeniably surreal. Right at this moment in my life I still haven’t figured out exactly what my feelings are towards certain aspects. Well they always say that there are no mistakes in life, only experiences gained after a heart-wrenching fight. Fighting against someone else or fighting against one’s self. It is such a rarity that I visit this corner, as usual. I am so sorry my little virtual land for abandoning you for the longest time ever but from now on, I reckon I will bombard you with thousands of nonsensical drama. Just hope that it won’t be true. Sometimes we as humans, always think that we are right about decisions that we make. We have that strong faith before doing something that might seem to be right with lots of references to our principles that we nurture. Well, it is not surprising that I am talking about myself. I said it before and I will say it again with pride and aplomb.
I AM THE BIGGEST HYPOCRITE ON THIS PLANET.
Well, that does make me feel a tad more relieved. I having no qualms in judging people whom I mostly do not know very well. Yet I have this super power of doing exactly what they are doing and have the whole day to myself trying to cough out justifications for my actions. I guess the word wrongdoings is more of an accurate description. This is very worrying as I always think I know a little bit about life. But in actual fact, I am as clueless as a sheep. That is not an idiom by the way. Ne’er have I ever thought my life can twist and turn like the rides in theme parks. I thought I would have a pretty smooth sail. Well, I hope after a storm, there would be at least some rays of light relentlessly piercing through the grey clouds, even better a rainbow.
Random note, after swimming for 14 laps just now, I saw rainbow and thought to myself, ‘ What a way of rewarding!’
This is a little note to myself.
HEY YOU, BEING ALONE DOESN’T MEAN BEING LONELY 
Nights whoever you are. I am pretty upset that another weekends are being spent on this God- forsaken piece of dump shit. Well this is a sign from
God for some belt tightening monetary policy. Hope it would help.
I AM PRAYING FOR MYSELF.
