surrounded by emptiness

‘ello! Today is Ram Thang Gieng and when I was resting after the run, I looked up and omg, the moon is so so so round and bright. Everytime looking at the full moon, there’s this feeling. A feeling of childhood, of the so much fun days. The countless nights when my whole family rode on the motorcycle and I kept looking up the moon while reciting of the moon-related poem learnt in school.

Trang oi tu dau den…

Lo lung ma khong roi…

And the breezy wind at night and the cooling weather was such a nice experience. Didn’t I have a slightest idea that while I enjoyed the ride home, my parents were burdened with so many difficulties in earning money. I didn’t realise the hardship that they were facing trying their best to provide us everything we wished and wanted and needed and what not. I remember of the late night when my father and I waited at the corner of the street waiting for my mother to come after collecting money from the sellers owed her and my teacher saw me. I remembered there were moments that she quarelled with the people because of some discrepancies in the amount.

Time flew and I didn’t even notice and omg everytime thinking of my childhood, there’re no words to describe how I appreciate their efforts and how much of love for them. As I grow older, I realise I wish to spend more time with them.

Bien menh mong khong dong day tinh Me

May long long khong phu kin tinh Cha.

Ngay 10 thang 02 nam 2009.

Finding words to describe how I’m feeling right now about everything. Everything will be back to square one again.

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Phew. This is exactly how I feel. I’ll start to pack otherwise I’m gonna be fucked.

This post is an open letter to someone who has been a truly great friend of mine even though I haven’t been that great to him/her.

Hey you. Thank you so much for this past year. You have been absolutely a great friend to me and I just can’t find words to describe how much you mean to me. I just want you to know that I’m really touched by everything you do. I think that 2008 is a marked milestone in our relationship. Don’t you think so?

I thank you for being there, listening to all my craps and motivating me and always always supporting all the decisions that I made. I thank you for being so ever understanding .I thank you for telling me about your troubles. You’re not a boring person as you think. Please don’t ever get that idea stuck in your head again. In fact, you’re one of the most interesting people I’ve known literally. I love the fact that we share a passion for music and singing till all the peopleA1 and Mariah Carey and Teo Heng.. And the shared passion for food and more food and weird food, be it Burmese or Indonesian ( smelly Burmese food, nice Burmese cake,tap water and the rude waiter chasing us, stupid coffee desserts,cheesecake, beef horfun, airport Hokkien mee,remember?) . Not forgetting the love of vicariously travelling through the time  and space continuum by reading anything and everything under the sun. And of course I won’t forget to mention the passion for movies even though your taste in movies is a little weird, eg.Twilight and that Russell Wong. And of course the sexy South Park.

I’m more than willing if you’re willing to need my listening ear as well. So please feel free to tell me the crappiest or most boring moments of your life. I just can’t get enough. Even though I don’t mean to you as much as you mean to me due to my lousy social life, I treasure the fact that you’ll always be there for me.

Please give  me some of your determination, die-hard spirit and diligence.

From your lousy friend.

p/s  It’s true that Gemini is bad at expressing his emotions. I hope you’ll appreciate this little token because I took awhile to draft this, realising that it’s way over Christmas and New Year. So this will count as an advanced CNY gift and birthday gift as well. Kidding.

p/s/s sorry for this lousily crafted letter as my writing with flowery and bombastic words won’t show the meaning of how I feel about you.

See you tmr.